21 again

i wrote this at 2:06 p.m. to be exact. for one thing in mu left i have try to a better man so i hope by trying to express my self in this blog i can change my feeling  and i have continue doing the same thing every single day. i found myself again - lonely. things changed. a lot of them. i really want to make up what i have done but it seems hard. who am i kidding to. everyone i approached ended up getting hurt by me. i just think that sometimes i need to grow up. be a man. i can be someone closest friend and i am sure it wont even last long. i might end up hurting their feeling. i might not give them what they want. am i too selfish? only thinking about what i want, what am i going to do, how do i feel and what is going to happen to me. i know now. i am too obsess. sowy wan just trying to get a good start..im speechless without a word hehe and your word of feeling is same as i am..

CK